Sunday, May 27, 2007

Tag No. 1

Tagged by Mr. Ponniah on Monday, 19 March 2007. first tag.

Layer 1: On the Outside
Name: Ju
Birth Date: The 28th day of September
Current Status: Single
but with a girlfriend. Very much single.
Eye Colour: Dark brown
Hair Colour: Dark brown
Righty or Lefty: Righty

Layer 2: On the Inside
My Heritage: Chinese
My Fears: Heights, creepy crawly insects, being alone in the dark, my imagination
My Weaknesses: Lazy and indiscipline
My Perfect Pizza: Lots of CHEESE, small cubes of pineapples, more CHEESE, meat choice of either pepperoni, turkey or chicken. Whichever is fine (preferably pepperoni of course). And all those ingredients atop a THIN crispy crust.

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My First Thoughts Waking Up: Shit, what time is it now?
My Bedtime: Normally, 12 or 1 something. Lately, 2 to 3 something.
My Most Missed Memory: My childhood. Only cause I can't remember much about it.

Layer 4: My Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Buger King: McDonald's Double Cheese Burger and French Fries, Burger King's French Chicken
Single or Group Dates: Depends on the occasion
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Tea or Nestea: Nestea (I don't drink tea.)
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate. (The next best thing after sex. Wait...I've never had sex. So to those who have, do you agree?)
Cappuccino or Coffee: Neither. (I don't take coffee.)

Layer 5: Do You...
Smoke: Only shisha
Curse: Too much for my own good
Take a Shower: The gf could smell the shampoo off my hair
Have a Crush: On girls or guys?
Go to School: Studying in a house full of nerds, i.e. Monash University
Want to Get Married: To a Billionaire? YES.
Believe in Yourself: I hope I do
Think You're a Health Freak: I can survive on just pastas. Health freak? 'Sure man.'

Layer 6: In the Past
Drank Alcohol: Erm...what do you think?
Gone to the Mall: I love shopping, so of course!
Been on Stage: Yes, and I do suffer from stage frights.
Eaten Sushi: Yes and I almost died.
Dyed Your Hair: Nope. My hair is still very much a virgin like I am.

Layer 7: Have You Ever...
Played a Stripping Game: Nope. But sounds like 'fun'. Who's in? =)
Changed Who You Were to Fit In: Yes, and it didn't work. It goes down as one of the STUPIDEST things I ever did.

Layer 8: Age You're Hoping...
To Be Married: 25-28

Layer 9: In A Guy
Best Eye Colour: Whatever
Best Hair Colour: Brown. Dark brown.
Short Hair or Long Hair: Whatever makes him look HOT & stylish & SEXY!

Layer 10: What Were You Doing...
A Minute Ago: Answering Layer 7: Have You Ever...
An Hour Ago: Chatting while updating my blog
4.5 Hours Ago: Eating Bah Kut Teh while watching Formula 1 (Monaco GP)
1 Month Ago: 27 April - I was on a bus to Langkawi. =)

Layer 11: Finish the Sentences
I love: my mum, my friends, humour in life, hanging out
I feel: fat
I hate: being fat
I hide: my fats
I miss: my high school days
I need: everything. I'm greedy, so what.

Layer 12: Tag 4 People
1. Audrey Teh
2. Calvin Lee
3. Harvey Wong
4. You

p/s: Happy, Ruwan?

People of a Reason, a Season, a Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they ARE. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, and their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. BUT only for a SEASON.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

'God determines who walks into your life, but it is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.'

Saturday, May 26, 2007

The Second Trimester

I came home from OU looking 5 months pregnant.


Me, the girlfriend and her boyfriend went on an eating spree.

First, we shared 2 waffles at Waffle World. Still feeling hungry, Sue & I shared a bowl of Assam Laksa while Fai had Otak-otak. With our stomachs adequately fed, we met up with the whole crew to watch PIRATES!

After that, all of us went for dinner at Oriental Cravings. Me, Sue & Fai each ordered a meal to ourselves. I had one big plate of fried rice; and that was NOT my last meal.

I came home and opened the fridge, only to be greeted by the chocolate cake my mum had bought for me. I cut a small slice and ate it. Then I moved on to having a small bowl of apple salad. AND THEN I ate more than ten pieces of cookies!!

OMG. I am a compulsive overeater. Shit.

p/s: I'm blaming it on my 'monthly'.

Friday, May 25, 2007


I could lay in a pool and get pulled down by gravity and drown.

I had a big bowl of ice-cream last night just before I slept cause I was feeling hungry? Well, not entirely but I just needed to binge. I went to bed looking 2 months pregnant and I woke up this morning looking 3 months pregnant. Fuck.

On the "lighter" side of things, I am watching PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN: AT WORLD'S END today! Although I'm pretty out of touch with the story line, it should still be fun!

p/s: I don't think I've ever heard Captain Jack Sparrow say 'Arrr!'.

Warmth of the Sand

All this emo-ness is depressing, really. And it's time to snap out of it.

Anyway, this is just something random. Thoughtfully random.


To the friends I cherish and love

To the friends I care about

To the friends I want to hang on to

To the friends who make standing in the sand so warm and relaxing

To the friends who mean so much to me

To the friends who make looking at pictures so memorable

To the friends who fill my life

To the friends who make my summer longer and warmer

To the friends who make my life so meaningful

To the friends who have made me better than I've been before

To the friends who have made ME


Wednesday, May 23, 2007

The Music or The Misery

I have a throbbing headache.

A constant bickering can be heard in the distance.

But it's mellowed out by Dashboard Confessional's 'Dusk & Summer'.

Cheers to the year 2007.

It can not get any better.



And the year keeps getting more fucked up.

Today I got fucking fined. AGAIN.

*click here*

Notice a trend?

p/s: Misery really does LOVE company.

Monday, May 21, 2007

What Do You Want From Me?

I always had a reason.

You know it;

Because I've told you.

And I thought you understood.

But I guess I was wrong.

So is this goodbye?

Is this where things 'come to an end'?

Is this what you want?

p/s: It 'makes me wonder' too.

I Hate This Feeling

Just got back from Hartamas.

Feeling quite high. From shisha and beer. (WTF. I know.)

Room is spinning...head is spinning...and I feel like puking.

I hate this feeling.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Riding High

I went to Metropolitan last night for the Auto Fiesta with Sean & Tiff.

Got to see the Hummer! And Hannah Tan. (She's quite petite.)

Besides that, I got to see Farah Stalin catwalk. She was a finalist for the Hypertune Cover Girl contest. She won 3rd place. (I think.) Congratulations girl!

After that we headed back to Tiff's place to catch the FA Cup final between Man U & Chelsea. (Ok...I'm so not talking about the match.)

It was a disappointing result, but my mood was lifted when I stepped into the Volkswagen Passat.

She fucks good...

Tiff's dad wanted Yee Mee, so we took that opportunity to take the car out for a spin.

The ride was just absolutely...orgasmic.

p/s: Congratulations to Chelsea for the undeserving win.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007


The time is 7.41pm. I reached home half an hour ago. An hour after I met in an accident. AGAIN.

Trying to keep it together.


Bloody fucking ASSHOLES!

Knocked a fucking Proton Wira driven by a fucking old blind asshole.

His mother fucking 'accomplice' got down from the car and started fucking blaming me. (And I kept my cool. I'm so fucking proud of myself. SCREW YOU BASTARD!)

I'm so pissed. I need alcohol. FUCK YOU FUCKERS!

p/s: You know, I think the bloody fucking driver ought to thank me. At least now his car looks like his face. Dumb blind fuck.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Draw A House


Check this site out:

*click here*

And follow the instructions.

What is it about?

Well, it is said that the way you draw a house says a lot about your personality.

So start drawing away.

p/s: It really is quite accurate. (Works only the first time around though. So be honest. =P)

pp/s: Oh...and it's a pretty good stress-reliever. Trust me. =)


I left for uni at 8am today, though my class only starts at 11am. Why? Parking. (And I'm not being kiasu!) I just don't want to have to park on the opposite side of uni and walk TWO KILOMETRES which most people do cause parking there is free. (I'm not so 'kiam-sap'.)

So here I am, seated in front of my lappie in the cafeteria...blogging.

Anyway, PJ was hit by a really bad storm in the late afternoon yesterday. (The weather has been eccentric.) Well, I couldn't really feel the effects of the storm since I was in the LIBRARY, hard at work (aka doing my bloody accounts assignment). I did not leave uni till 5pm, and my ballet starts at 6pm. (And yes, I was late for ballet.)

So after a long day at uni, I had a surprisingly smooth drive home only to have my neighbourhood greet me like this:

My tornado-hit street

Fallen leaves...

and broken trees

It looked just like a scene from Twister. So "Hollywood". So surreal. Well, thank God no one got hurt. =)

Saturday, May 12, 2007


This is a beautiful song with great lyrics. It's definitely a 'song of meaning'. Kudos to Howie Day.

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

Songs of Meaning

It's hard to find, nowadays, songs with meaningful lyrics.

Lyrics so beautiful,

they touch your soul.

They're more than just lyrics,

they're more than just words.

They paint a story.

A story in a painting

to be interpreted by anyone

in their own desired way.

In a way they can relate to it.

In a way they can look to it for comfort,

for console,

for solace.

Or perhaps,

for just...

a memory.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Weighing In

Lately I've been feeling a lot like this:

I think I may be suffering from binge eating disorder.

Signs of binge eating disorder:
  • Periodically does not exercise control over consumption of food (check)
  • Eats an unusually large amount of food at one time (on average, 1500 calories) (check)
  • Eats much more quickly during binge episodes than during normal eating episodes (check)
  • Eats until physically uncomfortable (check)
  • Eats large amounts of food, even when they are not really hungry (check)
  • Always eats alone during binge eating episodes, in order to avoid discovery of the disorder (Hmm...I think I do. So check.)
  • Feels disgusted, depressed, or guilty after binge eating (check)
Yep, I definitely have binge eating disorder. Sigh.

I know most of you are probably thinking I must be crazy cause I don't e
xactly LOOK obese. But it is said that people of normal weight can suffer from the disorder as well. So there...I am not crazy. And in any case, I ain't of normal weight. I'm actually OVER weight...for my height.

Apparently the causes of binge eating disorder are still unknown although half of all people who suffer from the disorder have a history of depression. (Okay...I don't believe I've suffered
from depression......yet.)

Complications of binge eating disorder:

The major complications of binge eating disorder are the diseases that accompany obesity. These include diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol levels, gallbladder disease, heart disease, and certain types of cancer.

Other complications might also include:

sex difficulties

Fuck. Someone kill me, PLEASE, if I ever end up like that ^.


Several studies have found that people with binge eating disorder may find it harder than other people to stay in weight loss treatment. Binge eaters also may be more likely to regain weight quickly. For these reasons, people with the disorder may require treatment that focuses on their binge eating before they try to lose weight.
Even those who are not overweight are frequently distressed by their binge eating and may benefit from treatment.

Several methods are being used to treat binge eating disorder. Cognitive-behavioural therapy (Hah...I actually learnt this in Psychology back in SAM. And it was a whole lot of bullshit.) teaches patients techniques to monitor and change their eating habits as well as to change the way they respond to difficult situations. Interpersonal psychotherapy helps people examine their relationships with friends and family and to make changes in problem areas. Treatment with medications such as antidepressants may be helpful for some individuals. Self-help groups also may be a source of support. Researchers are still trying to determine which method or combination of methods is the most effective in controlling binge eating disorder. The type of treatment that is best for an individual is a matter for discussion between the patient and his or her health care provider. (Yea yea...whatever. Like I can afford treatment. Oh well, looks like I'm going to need a reasonably large coffin when I die.)

On a side note, I haven't been weighing myself cause I know I will get an early undue heart attack from seeing the number of my weight. And I'm not about to take any risks with my health (sense the irony?). Anyway, for those who are sick and tired of getting on a scale and seeing a number they don't like, invest in the celebrity weighing scale.

Say bye-bye numbers and hello Baby Jesus? Wtf.

Basically, the celebrity weighing scale doesn't show how much you weigh, but instead shows you who you weigh like. How cool is that?!

Ah...such innovation from minds of geniuses. Swt.

p/s: The celebrity I weigh like: Victoria Beckham.

Which celebrity do YOU weigh like?

Sunday, May 06, 2007

The Secretary

I forgot to mention that the guy I beat in pool happened to be President of the ping pong club. And I'm Secretary.

It does sound quite hilarious to say that the President got
beaten thrashed in pool by his Secretary, don't you think? Sounds ALMOST scandalous...

And I love scandals. =)

Saturday, May 05, 2007


It's one of those Fridays when you actually DON'T thank God it's Friday.

Having missed uni on Monday, I had to replace the classes on Friday (i.e. yesterday). So my Friday's schedule looked like this:

2pm - 3pm: Econs
3pm - 4.30pm: Management (Tutorial)
5.30pm - 7pm: Management (Lecture)

I had classes from 2pm to 7pm! On a bloody Friday when I don't normally have classes on Fridays! Godamnit. You can't possibly condemn me now for complaining about uni life. Sheesh.

Well, at least something brought a smile to my face. I beat a guy in pool. =) Not just any guy. He claims to be 'skilled' in pool. Ah, I guess I put him in his place.

p/s: No hard feelings right, Darren. =P

Friday, May 04, 2007

Langkawi: A Post Mortem

Now that I'm back from my trip, I've really got to get back to my work. I'm gonna keep complaining about university life. So bare with me. Cause it really does suck.

Anyway, on the lighter side of things, I've decided to list down the events that took place in Langkawi. Mainly what I did in Lankawi actually. Some things you might not even want to know. No worries, nothing too scandalous.
  1. I think I drank more than 10 cups over the 2 nights. (No wonder I didn't get high. Shit.)
  2. I probably bathed in someone's semen. *Ahem... (Mainly cause the shower always gets flooded. And the PEOPLE who bathed before me...I don't think I need to elaborate further.)
  3. I lost my shades. (My beloved Ralph Lauren shades. Sigh.)
  4. I lost my voice. (Ohh yea...I had a really deep sexy voice.)
  5. I kissed a girl. (Not the most 'straight' thing to do.)
  6. I went to the beach in the wee hours. (It's really quite peaceful. Probably one of the best times to have really great sex on a beach.)
  7. I pee-ed on the beach...twice. (Not the most feminine thing to do. But I really needed to pee quite badly.)
  8. I stripped in the sea. (Not entirely...just the top. And I didn't act alone. Tiff & I caused the dudes kayaking not far from us to topple over. Sweet.)
  9. I drove a van. An old, no power steering manual van. (And I was smooth, right Pau?)
  10. I bumped into Melissa Julia D'Cruz! (My classmate from high school. How random is that! I miss you Melsy.)
I didn't get I could still recall a lot of the things that happened.


Thursday, May 03, 2007

Just My Luck

What I predicted to be a dull, ordinary back-to-uni-after-a-week's-break day didn't quite turn out to be so. At least, not entirely. It was still 'ordinary' to a certain extent.

Actually, the only intriguing part of the day was my morning. So I walked into the lecture theatre and found my seat by my friends. One of my friend then passes me a small paper bag containing a gift. WRAPPED. Occasion......none that I can think of. The only occasion I know that is round the corner is Mother's Day. (And I've never gone through labour...or even had sex for that matter. So yea...) If you don't find that weird, perhaps you'll find this to be. From who,
you would probably now be asking. Well, I DON'T KNOW! No card, no note, no name. And my friend couldn't recognise the person who passed it to her. Just great. I don't even think the gift is meant for me actually. The person probably got mixed up.

I guess I'm left to ponder and wonder. Ah heck it, everyone deserves to get lucky once in a while. And I guess today was my 'lucky' day. =)

p/s: The gift?

The Holiday soundtrack CD.

(Random, but sweet.)

To Langkawi, With Love

For some reason, I'm having a writer's block. This could not have come at a more impeccable time as I intend to launch the start of my new blog (i.e. this blog). Yes, I am moving here. Although I haven't got round to familiarising myself with the CSS codes, HTML and whatnot. So you'll notice that my blog will still look rather...dull. Ok...I think I'm gonna need help.

Anyway, over the last weekend, I went to Langkawi with a bunch of friends. It was an amazingly wonderful trip. One of the best I've had in years! (Then again, I can't even remember the last time I went on a proper vacation.) Beach + Pool + Alcohol + GREAT COMPANY will always make a trip memorable. And that one word really does sum up the whole trip, memorable. As much as I would love to go on talking about my trip, I am pressed for time. My assignment deadlines are lining up and those who know me well enough will know I'm always getting my work done at the eleventh hour.

But don't despair. Because instead of me doing the documentation of the trip, I've given the honour to my master. However, before that, I would like to take this opportunity to thank Tiffany Toh (the 'God'), Janice Tong, Pau, Jin, Sean Phuah, Nick Kwang, Marco Soo and Tim Danker for making this trip possible, incredible and MEMORABLE (excuse my limited vocabulary...I couldn't think of another suitable word that ends with -ble). Well, I shan't keep you from further suspense, so...enjoy. =)

For additional read, check out the site below. Timmy boy also did a good job of documenting the trip.

Cheers mates!